Im sick of everything, sick of the superficiality of things. Sick of giving in so much and then cast aside when you're not needed.
Everybody tells me they care, but then when I am suffering in pain, when I am battling with myself, where is everybody when they said they would be here for me? A whole load of rubbish. Stop saying you'll be here when you fucking won't.
I don't care about anyone anymore. Why should I?
I don't get appreciated for what I do anyways. I am not even asking for anything in return. Fuck. Go fuck your lives, basket.

Im cramping like fuck right now. And am in a bad mood. I look like a stupid white ghost, super pale. I can scare people at night already. Thanks to some who were here for me at least for awhile. I love you guys. I don't need hypocrites.

SPECIAL THANKS TO ...

KELMEN BROTHER :)
For helping me take panadols and feeding me with it. I love you

YANG XINZAI :)
For sorting out the fuck loads of panadol in my medicine box today.

DEEDEE :)
For trying to make me feel better.

MOMO TWINNEH :)
For messaging me and asking if I am alright. Can be my 2nd mother alrdy ! :D

KELVIN :)
For showing his concern for me. I love you.

LASTLY..
MY BOLSTER.
For being the only one hearing my sorrows, watching me cry, hearing me laugh, hugging me all night and the only true one who was right beside me.

p/s - I wanna cry.