I v.gek now. There is so much things I wanna say, but Idk how to start.
Idk if this is due to my emotional moodswings or whatever, but things aren't going too well, in fact. I have been hiding, been running away. Idk las.

I am going through various ups and downs in my life right now.
Well who wouldn't?
Where were you when I needed you?
When I needed to hear your voice, needed to see your face.
I wanted to treasure every moment, remember every second that we had, but life keeps getting in the way. I dread the moment when you have to leave but there's no choice is there?
I close my eyes at night and I remember the sweetest things you have done for me, and guess what, I smile to sleep like a stupid fool. But who cares? These are the things I wanna carry along with me when I progress along in life.
I changed alot, I knw I do. The person I used to be is dead, and now welcome to the new side of me.
Idk if its just me or this is really affecting me. I long to see you giving me the attention I need, not giving the attention that belonged to me to some other game. Games aren't REAL, they don't need your affection. But I need, I desperately NEED. I wan your love, I wan your attention, I need it all. Call me selfish or whatever, but you once told me "love is selfish". Yeah, you're psychic.
You know you put me in a confusing web that I can't get out from. I see your adorable ways, your adorable face, the way you treat me like a princess, the way you held my hand and protected me, the times we joked around, that shoelaces I love to untie. You don't knw how stupidly I smile to myself when I see anything related to you. This is crazy, but I have got no choice. I can't pull myself out anymore. You know I love you.
Frankly speaking, its not me thinking too much. Its really how I feel.
Why do you make me so confused? One minute you are so sweet and the next minute I see you drifting away. I tried to pull you back closer, calling you, but I am afraid you'll complain that I am restricting your freedom. I am at a loss, I really am.
And All I want is to see you giving me your attention every minute every second.
Forget it, I am v.tired.

Can someone just tell me what is going on? Can someone just lift this pain away?
Baby, you really stole my heart away.
You took my breath away.
Nothing is going to change the fact that I love you