geez.its 1st of july oredi. another one month more to my freakin piano exam. i m totally nervous. i screwed the whole mock exam ytd. i feel like crying. i didnt perform my best i think. i fumbled the aural and sight reading and that stupid piano was so echo-ey. but i like that piano. whilst playing a nice song, it gives u a pianist kinda feeling. i m going to get my daddy to get it for me (:

ytd was okie. school was ok too. assembly was exceptionally boring whilst mrs ouyang was rattling about this yr's goals or maybe even next year's. its pretty slack during school this wk except for the mugging of the holiday h/w which I HAVENT even completed ALL yet. i still have some left. the english and some of maths. its really stressful. pooh.

i had my piano lesson ytd and mrs kannie kee, the vice principal taught me personally. i felt so stressed whilst she pin point the tiniest mistake i made. and she kept stopping me and making me play over and over again. sometimes, i feel like slapping her but i pretended to smile really wide and be really humble and go "ok.i'll try again". and thank god, the time passed super fast. (: but still, i would like to thank her for her guidance. i've learnt some pointers and know how to make the three songs a perfect piece. i'm going to surprise tcher ann when she comes back from her medical leave.

then after the piano lesson, i had my mock exam. my scales were ok. i think i did pretty well. and then my songs. i dunno whether it was good or not, but i've tried putting feeling into it. i hoped it didnt screw the whole thing up. i have this problem of intepreting songs. i need help immediately. then the examiner told me to study sight reading. the piece was so damn tough lah. with double sharps and flats and different rhythmn for diff hands. i felt like dying. its tougher than handbell scores and no way could i master it in 5 mins?! but i still pretended like i played the world's perfect piece ever. i think the examiner was trying to control her laughter. i felt like an idiot. i knew i played really badly and yet i played like its the perfect piece. my pride is dashed. then the last part was aural. i sang badly and i fumbled the terms and description. seriously, i couldnt find anywhere to hide in. i was totally embarrassing myself. MY PRIDE IS REALLYREALLYREALLY DASHED. i need a paper bag

i am really relieved this mock exam is over. i was having anxious spells for the whole wk. whew. i better buck up on my piano songs. sheesh. and then there's this h/w assigned for the youth day holiday and the sec 4 farewell coming along. lets all just commit suicide shall we?

i'll see you guys in paradise.